August 25th, 2007
Sorry It Has Been So Long
I just wanted all of you guys know that I didn’t fall off the face of the earth. Or maybe I did. I just went on a bit of an extended vacation of sorts. Not the kind that is desired but the kind that is almost worse than going to the dentist. Here’s the deal…
I had a nervous breakdown on June 20th. I was feeling very depressed so I tried to find a good shrink to go to. I couldn’t even find a bad one to go to. My depression escalated and I ended up at the ER. I admitted myself into an in-patient mental facility and stayed there from the 22nd until the 29th. I think they released me too soon. While I was having my luxurious hospital stay I was diagnosed as OCPD (Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder). This is not to be confused with OCD. I am just very organized and when things are out of control I have a hard time handling it. I like labels. I like organization. It has made me the successful person that I am. Unfortunately, it also contributed to my nervous breakdown. I was also diagnosed as Bipolar type II. This means that I have more lows than highs. This makes sense because my normal emotional level was always glass half empty or more. My “manic” episodes didn’t really seem very manic to me plus they were few and far between. They released me and during that next week I spent way too much money. I had a very bad manic episode and went a little nuts. Since then it has been a bunch of trips to the shrink and twice a week appointments with a therapist. I still haven’t gotten back to work but I am working on it. We are trying to transition me back to work but that takes time for the legal aspect as well as the paperwork aspect.
I promise I will be better at writing from now on.
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